What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you,
And what am I supposed to say when I’m all choked up and you’re ok
I’m falling to pieces, yeah,
I’m falling to pieces
It’s a lot harder than it seems. You talk all day, everyday. You fall asleep on the phone together. You wake up to good morning texts. You think about them every second you’re awake then when you’re asleep, you dream about them. You spend time with them whether its in person or not. They soon become a part of your everyday life and you get used to it. Then all of a sudden, they leave. Most of the time once they’re gone, they’re gone for good. Meaning, no more late night calls, no more cute text messages (actually no texts at all), no more ’i love you’ ‘babe‘ all of that. The first few days you will want to call, text, send them an ask, IM, really do everything just to talk to them and restore what’s “normal”. But, as much as you try, things don’t change. The hardest part is letting go. You check their tumblr and facebook often just to see what they’re doing and also to see if they have someone new. This person that was once your everything is now just a memory. A memory that you replay over and over again in your head. You spend nights reminiscing in the said words, shared laughs, the kisses, all the good things that went on during the time you two were together. Letting go can take weeks, months, even years. Remember that this was just a fragment of time, a memory that will someday fade.
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If it’s gonna be a rainy day
There’s nothing we can do to make it change
We can pray for sunny weather
But that won’t stop the rain
Feeling like you got no place to run
I can be your shelter ‘til it’s done
We can make this last forever
So please don’t stop the rain
Let it fall, let it fall, let it fall…
daydreams
i really do not know what to do… To leave or to stay until the end.
I have been daydreaming so much lately since I have been very lucky. I got into my dream school, got a scholarship and tuition exemption by my bioengineering professor, and got into the honors program: I am going to be a 2016 University of Washington Husky and I am so excited. I also have a research paper coming up and connections with so many people about becoming a chemical engineer. I have my next couple years all set and now I just don’t know what I am going to do with my next few months with the people I love right now… I just don’t know if it is time to seperate with everyone or to be happy with every second i got with them. It is hard to determine what is best for two people and what wont hurt the most. I have already tried ending everything months ago, but that broke both of our hearts and i realized that was not what i wanted. But i really do not know what I want. My family is right. Think about everything you do that takes up your time. Is it worth it? Does it benefit you? Do you have a future with whatever youre doing? But then again they are also wrong. Isn’t my happiness important? Isn’t the “100% personality” enough? Isn’t love the answer to every question?
I feel too young to be able to do anything i want. We’re at that awkward age where we are considered adults, but we really cannot do all that much. I wish i met so many of the people i love today four years from now when we are older and more mature.
Everyone i have loved throughout my childhood are leaving and i do not know how to handle that. I sometimes wish I am leaving to. Start fresh. Start anew. Start in a place that doesnt have any signs of the past. I can’t deal with sudden changes and especially changes that really effect my life negatively. Right now all I can think of is what to do… what to do with you… what to do with this big loving heart of mine for you… I just want everything to be easier. Why do you have to leave? How do you have the guts to tell people that you want to leave this place when I am right next to you? Oh man I just cried while writing that. I guess there is always an end to everything. But i didn’t know it’s going to be so soon… I have made so many good memories and i just keep asking myself what i have to do to make everything easier…
Not many people may know how I feel. Like I said, i feel too young to be able to experience such emotions. And just a few days ago, one of my friends passed away. This should not be happening to anyone at such an age. It was a definete wake-up call. A bad and a good wakeup call.
My tears are comforting and your smile sets my world on fire.
Viva la vida
“Speak out, dance in the pouring rain, hold someone’s hand, comfort a friend, fall asleep watching the sunset, and smile until your face hurts. Don’t be afraid to live life in the moment”
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~~~~~Anna.Belle.Song~~~~~ “"Aim for success, not perfection. Never give up your right to be wrong, because then you will lose the ability to learn new things and move forward with your life.”"
